melissas99

yesterday was a great day!! i went shopping most of the day wiht paul. went to meadowlands, got a really cool shirt colleen is gonna adore. and a winter coat. it was sucha a sweet deal, half price cuz of a tiny tear in teh back that i can totally fix! then i got to go hang out with chrissy. we did presents and i got the coolest gifts, soooo random, penguin calander, and penguin/ice cube board game. blind melon cd's oh the memories of no rain. a cd in the jesus series of songs inspired by David lee roth's clothing, gonna put it on in a minute. a really cool book called a sexicon which is full of words for different sexual stuff. some very strange things,... i love it! and a pingu dvd and a bsb video hehe good tiems!!

there really are a LOT of pickeles in the huge thing i gave her. lol pickles for every meal!! woohooo hehehehe

today no one is home, mark is at work, paul's gone to TO for the weekend. mom and dad are running errands in hamiltona nd i got to sleep to noon which was pretty sweet.

had a wierd dream last night though. i was curled up in a ball in really really reallyreally really really bad stomach pains on the side of the road which appeared to be the intersection in caledonia. the pain was sooo bad and finally found a car to take me tothe hospital, but i think it was new years cuz people were running around yelling in very sparkly dresses! and the guy that was driving the car was william shatner and he kept trying to get me to pour him a glass of pepsi but i couldnt because the pain was so bad, then we had to stop to watch the cops bust a dial a beer girl delivering alcohol to minors. then then someone told me it was labour pain and we had to go to the hospital in case i was gonna have a baby. then i wokeup so i dont know if i had a baby or not... but i wasnt in stomach pain so thats good, dont know what caused the dream...

im very hungry right now so i should get some food and do a load of laundry and pack to go home, cant wait till lo's tomorrow night!! whoohooo

mel

Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: thoughts of the david lee roth cd....hehe

this christmas break has been wonderful. full of lots of eating and board game playing. mostly at my cousins house for a few days but its always so relaxing in uxbridge.

greatly enjoying my time away from work and not even freaking about hte loss of income. for once i think im gonna be ok! wooohooo

got some good visiting in, going to see chrissy tomorrow. cant wait to give her the 20L present hehe. gotta figure out how to wrap it hmmmm could pose a challenge.

after not checking my email for a few days i came home to some great ones. love the thinking of you ones hehe always make me smile.

been pretty up set about the flooding and tsunamis in and around india in the last few days. i was looking at a map of what was affected and realizing i have a few friends from that part of the world. im very grateful none went home for the holidays and at the same very worreid about their families. im really praying they are alright and that the world can help a lot over there, its made me pretty sad.

looking forward to new years at lo's parents this weekend, always a good party tehre!! i'll definietly be babysitting after the drinking i did last weekend hehe.

i hope everyone is having a great holiday, i'll catch up more later on. gotta get off my bros comp he's itching to chat hehe.

mel

Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: marks game cube background song

so i kown its been like 3 months since i wrote in here, but i will try to keep a bit more up to date.

not a lot seems ot have happened in that time. i work full time, did 2 courses this term, i think they went alright, still waiting on some grades.

i did develop balls the size of texas this term, according to manDi. basically i got bored with playing relationship games. managed to get the balls to tell two guys this term how i felt about them. unfortunatly im still single but im starting to think its a perma thing lol. i dont mean to whine, but i swear if i hear "sorry i dont think of you like that" one more time!! i appreciate that im always such a good friend but can ones physical appearance really mean that much. i always thought i was kinda cool, apparently not enough... ugh

tonight was black water, last one of the term and rubens last night bartending. he and i may have gone through some ups and downs over the past years but he has always been there when i really needed him, if not always when i thought i did. for that im grateful and believe he'll stay a part of my life, well at least i hope so

i was so glad john came tonight, im relaly glad he's also back workign at the shack. he's one of the coolest guys i know and its been so great getting to know him more and more lately. and he played my pretend bf tonight, (sorry rob you werent here...hehe) so i actually got some quality snuggling. as lonely as ive been lately i didnt realize just how much i missed haveing someone till i was sitting there with his arms around me. felt so safe. so secure. fake bf or not, im very grateful for feeling that again. i had honestly forgotten what it was like...

and i got to see denise and dave tonight. which is always awesome because its a rarity. i cant believe its been so long since we lived together. she was one of my first real friends at university and she'll always be so important to me.! and of course because she introduced me to john mayer. hehe mmmm john...

yesteday was a pretty damn aweosme day. it was the first day i didnt have any obligations. i got to go for coffee with bob, which has become more and more of a regular thing in my life for which im very grateful. he's such an awesome guy and our conversations make me laugh when i htink about the fact that hey we really did justh ave an hour long convo about lobsters etc hehe. so we got sme food at timmys then looked for gloves and he took me to register, thank heavens cuz who knows when i woulda gotten around to it! ugh!

then i got to see dave. which was so awesome. our friendship is so wierd. it started pretty intense, to the point where it creeped me out that we seemed to be so much alike. that of course made me question what exactly our friendship bond was. after confirming friendship, we didnt see a lot of each other, sometimes at wilfs, but i always felt that my brutal honesty really screwed up what we coulda had along the lines of friendship. i'll probably always question whether my balls were good at that moment. then just as im ready to give up and realize i screwed it up and he wants nothgin to do to me. he tells me how he appreciates my friendship. of course i cant walk away from that right? so i got to spend like 4 hours yesterday just hanging out, talkign, listneing to music. felt almost right again. i just cant put into words how incredible his personality is. he's soooooooo considerate, sweet and funny as hell. and obviously not bad to look at in the least!! hehe. i can just hope that our friendship can keep growing and i dont scare him away lol.

i should get the rest of my stuff together and get to bed. gotta get up and call patches before i clean out my fridge,,, eewwww. lol

i'll try to keep up world. sweet dreams to all!
happy holidays
mel

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: #8 on soul decision's new cd...nice spanish guitar love song

well most of this is actually copied out of a huge email i just sent jake but i figured its just as good to fit in here.

im home a lone right now. colleens gone home for the weekend, bonnie is at seans sisters wedding, mandi and lo went to the cottage. andrea had better be getting some sleep hehe. so i spent the afternoon doing nothing, watched some family downloaded some stuff. then showered. never felt so good to be clean although im highly dreading brushing my hair!! the tnagles have been soooooo bad lately with the humidity its gonna hurt a lot!!

you can tell that a lot of new people have just moved in because there are university kids walking up and downt he street all day long. could be i notice more so becuase i have yet to buy curtains...

im supposed to be in hamilton at emmas bday party today but no i had to have the chest infection that just wont die. i hope it went really great for chrissy and for emma!!

no for the recent life update...

kate arrived in cantebury on wed and got settled in for teachers college in england. she said everything seems so beautiful and her flatmates are great. jasmine and i went to TO to see her off at the airport when she left. i had never been to an airport so it was an interesting experience. then back to waterloo to party at paddys for skinny phat as a goodbye for another friend who left for bc for school. then a few days later jasmine left for TO for school this year. seems like so many people left out of my life in such a short period of time. patrick went to australia till sept 30th, cant wait for him to get back. he's a guy i went on a few dates with. things are going well so i cant wait for him to get back. he's pretty awesome, makes me all giggly :)

at the same time that so many people left, a lot of people came back. mandi moved in next door and im sooo happy shes back. my roomates are here again. bonnie moved back last weekend then colleen a few days later. its very nice to have roomates again :)

we had training all week getting the terrace and our respective staffs ready for the terrace to open on tuesday for frosh week. its been a really emotional week for me. very sad actually. seeing the staff return to the pita shack was really really hard knowing i wasnt going to be working directly with them this year. i konw that i'll still see them and live and hang out with them but it was so hard to watch someone else train them. i know that i'll be great at harveys and their staff has shown a great deal of excitement to have me there. theyve made many comments about wanting to be more outgoing, social, fun etc like the shack. so i believe its good that i'll be there but man i miss the shackers. didnt help that so many new and returning staff all were quite upset that i was no longer working with them. got lots of guilt trips. so im still trying to adjust.

actually listening to jake play on one of the tapes from open mic nights. the last one he hosted. so good to hear your voice again :) thats another great thing about my house this year. colleen brought wiht her a really good quality kareoke machine. so the other night rob, john and pat came over. mandi, lo, bonnie, colleen, zul and andrea were here. for hours we went between rob and bonnie singing wiht the guitar to colleen and zul singing with the machine. the talent is incredible. colleen spent much of her summer in detroit singing and recording on a soundtrack coming out this fall. there was a documentary called the other side of 8 mile being made and she was asked to sing on the soundtrack. she is involved wiht 5 tracks. some solos some singing with guys who are rapping. shes just incredible. shes actually there right now working on editing.

so thats life right now i must now go brush my hair and keep trying to find my floor...

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: if there was a reason it was you, pearl jam

so i know its been about a year and a half since i updated but i just havent had the gusto to do it lately...

im sitting in the terrace kinda just hanging out till the people finish building lynns desk. for the last week or so ive been spending my days in teh terrace. doing od cleaning jobs for lynn or filing etc. kinda grubby work but hey its work and i go home tired so that is good.

well i now have a purple bedroom. its the first room away from home that i think will really truly feel like mine since i put the work into doing it. huge thanks to jazzy, lisa and joe for helpign me paint. its very bright purple wiht pink window sills and accents. jazzy is gonna helpme move stuff into it over the next few weeks and i really am gonna try to be organized!!

i've gone on a few dates with this guy named patrick. i think he's pretty damn cool. we've been hanging out and getting to know each other. chrissy likes to say we're dating but im not too sure yet hehe. foudn out today he's leaving for australia on friday for up to a month. so that is pretty disappointing, i am going to miss him.

jake left last week for germany. he's gone for 4months for a school term. was sad to say good bye but really we all know its for the best he is gone for a little while so i can move on.

tonigth im going to the movies with dave from wilfs. i suppose one of these days i should find out his last name hehe theres something to do this evening while we wait for teh movie to start. we had so much fun at john mayer. he makes me laugh.

which brings me to the concert which was fan-freakin-tastic. denise and i waitedi n line in the AM to see mr mayer play an accoustic show at sam the record man. we didnt get autographs but did see him play a few songs in teh store. we met these 3 brothers in line behind us that were really cool. they were from vancouver and visiting TO for the summer. im still hoping that conrad will email me. he's goign to school to be a youth pastor. i'd love to talk to him about it!!

then Dee and i went to the sound check and hung out till the concert. i went with monica, dave and kessiah. Kessiah traded seats with jake for alittle while which was a very emotional little bit of time while he had his arms around me singin in my ear. but like i said before im trying to get over him!!

im also looking forward to having roomates again. gotta start getting that house seriously organized cuz its in damn rough shape!!

im very sleepy and i htink that they might be done with lynns desk so im gonna sign off and hopefully make it home in time to see rob when he gets to town.

i'll try to write more often.
mel

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: back to you, john mayer

so i finally got the ok to say why im "home".
well first of all im not really home. im in brantford, ps i hate this town lol. im going to harveys school this week and next. im getting a crash course on how to help run a harveys. which leads to my next comment. i will have a new job in the fall. i will no longer be helping run the pita shack. which is actually really sad and kinda upsetting news but change can be good right? so ive taken the offer for a new opportunity to learn new things and i will be working with the AM's at harveys in the fall doing some stuff there.

so im in brantford this week and next. wow ive nevr known a city like this one. lol. ive never liked brantford but now the dislike has grown stronger. perhaps its because im stuck downtown with the sketchiest of the sketchies, im not sure.

well as my res room is QUITE empty. im in a comp lab at the brantford laurier building. im very thankful for this bit of contact with the outside world. unfortuantly they will be kicking me out soon. im gonna go find some dinner and try to not be eaten by a local... lol

cant wait to get back to waterloo and my normal life...

going home to my parents for the weekend, mmm real food and free laundry hehe

night all
mel

well im leaving this aft around 130 to head home for the week. not sure when i'll be back.

i had a good weekend. chrissy came up on sat and we got eat mongolian. mmmm.then we went grocry shopping and i crimped her hair and we watched a wedding for bella. still not as good as i wish it was. then we wandered aroudn some bars that night, saw some drunk people weaving down sidewalks and came home.

sunday i had tea with marcos, it was some interesting herbal thing that you had to sip through a bamboo shoot. it was alright. i didnt drink that much of it cuz it was really strong.

well i gotta go pack.

have a goo dweek all

so i quit zellers. something else came up that unfortunately im not allowed to talk about yet. i hate having to keep secrets lol but i know its just how it is.

im also kinda upset because we had to cancel the pita retreat. i konw its cuz of new union rules and liability etc. but i still dont fully understand and i guess tahts wahts the most frustrating part...

there will be a pool party at lo's house in kitchener that weekend though, especially sat night. i have to send out hte email abou thta just as soon as i get the rest of the details. people are welcome to come all weekend or just sat night. there are lots of couches, beds etc that we can all sleep in. it will also be pretty much the last time for jen houston and kate to say goodbye before they head west and over the ocean. more details to come...

chrissy is coming to waterloo toinght and im so happy about that. i feel like its beena long time since ive seen her and a LOT has happened. it will be really nice to have a relaxing night, a weddign for bella and anymovies we decide to rent.

i met a cute boy last night. his name was joe. we've chatted for awhile online, i had never seena pic, was quite pleasantly surprised. we hung out at tims for like an hour before he had to go. i hope to see him agian. i htink we'd make good friends :)

k im gonna go do some cleaning and typing :)

mel

im in sucha good mood it doesnt even bother me that the constuction guys just showed up and i will fall asleep to the sounds of nail guns as the house next door gets the rest of its roof..

I have so many thoughts in my head right from my walk home i jsut need to put them down so i will in point form. i hope they make sense...

-my astonishment at the number of people on teh road, walking, driving and riding bikes. i know just because im not usally anywhere near conciousness at this time of day the rest of the world stops too but ther were a lot of them!
-cotton candy sky to my left, purply dark sky to my right and th moon straight above.
-the beautiful beautiful wildflowers. they are my favourite part about walking to and form the mall!! the one i picked that looked like it should have been in a field on the prairies blowing with the rest of the grain. and my excitment when i saw that the individual pieces had a purple tinge to htem, absolutly gorgeous!! then the fuzzy periwinkle coloured ones, the queen annes lace just freshly bloomed, the short quant yellow ones, the grass that had grown so long it fell over in the rain, and a few stray daises still growing from teh bunch i picked from over a month ago.
-every 5 steps looking to my left and seeing the sky change as the pink clouds took on new shapes and colours
-stopping to laugh out loud when i got under the highway and saw a garbage truck and other various vehicles stopped in teh middle of the road to let a group of Canadian geese cross as the field in front of waterloo inn simply had the best breakfast for them this morning. made me feel better to see people taking time from their day to watch these beautiful creatures making their morning walk to eat.
-then stoppin in my tracks when i looked down into the pond and seeing the swans. kate and bonnie can attest to the fact that every time i walk past there i look for the swans but this morning they were so beautiful with their necks in and out of the bubble gum coloured water, they also were looking for breakfast. they just looked so pretty in the pink reflected water.
-and now sitting here at the computer seeing the first actual rays of sun reflecting off things around my house.

then like so very often when im walking by myself in beautiful times i carry on conversations in my head. had a great one wishing the guy i want would want me back but alas lol.

i also did some thinking about how many people are upset wiht life right now. i havent been in teh best of moods lately but this morning put a lot of htings in perspective. and totally made me remember the bible story where Jesus tells his followers, look at how God takes care of the sparrows and makes sure they are well provided for. Do you not think you are worth more than a sparrow and that God will provide for you as well? i hope that message reaches people and allows them to realize that even when times are tough they are not alone and not without the love of friends, friends that would do anything in their power for them.

and to completly top my day off i was walking down columbia so close to my house when i look down in someones recycling bin and i see none other than the waterloo chronicle from last week. the one with the answers to the crossword bob and i worked sooooo very hard on!! so now i will wash my feet (sorry mandi) and check our answers and hopefully get tired.
Jordan is coming over tomorrow for me to braid her hair and im looking forward to a visit with her!!

sweet dreams as most if not all of you are still in bed enjoying the feel of your pillows!!

Feeling good about life....
Mel

PS-the next time you go to zellers and stand there deciding what type of dish or laundry detergent to get, remember what a bitch they are to move to new shelves. LOL

night

well it was a fantastic weekend!!

sat i slept in and woke up, baked a cake, did some dishes, wrapped jazzys gift, took a nap then we went out for jazzys bday. dinner at east sides then paddys, barley works tehn paddys again. got to meet jazzys sister and brother in law, very nice people.

i got a great surpise when we got to paddys. some band was on stage i didnt look closely till one of them waved at me, then i was like woah!! thats mark and carmen and paddy. totally made the night even better since i havent seen them in awhile! we left paddys after a bit cuz there were a lot of creepy old men there. so we went o barley works got jazzy a bunch of shots and then they let me stop back in at paddys cuz i really wanted to talk to mark and carmen. so we got there in time to actualy hear them play the one song i was hoping ot hear! the one by the band that like "take a load off annie, take a load for free..." so i went up and talked to mark for a little bit, he was so funny cuz he was in behind the drums and was trying to get out he was like" ugh im trying to come talk to you but the drums wont let me out" i swear that guy is adorable. such a truly nice guy. so chatted with im a bit, then carmen showed up and i talked to him a bit. got their emails so that helps talked to carmen about going for sushi next time mandi comes down to visit. he said he hasnt had it since they said they would go with us. so it was really great to see thema fter so long.

then we walked home and then jazzy and i walked lisa waugh home then went to jazzys to watch pirates of hte carribean and sleep on her pullout couch. we both fell asleep really quickly and stayed in bed till 12ish hehe.we had some tea and then went to the mall. we went to bouclairs for like 2 hours!! looking at material and such. got some really gret buys! then the same at homesense. get this!! i got an ice cream scoop with a penguin on it!! woohoo!!and some funky plates to hold candles on.

then jazzy and i came back and ate stirfry and made pillows. i got cute material with little animals on it and made a pillow for emma, but it needs to be stuffed. jazzy sat sewing for hours!! we watched independence day, then identity which i adore! i saw it once before with jake and kessiah, its quite good! then we watched along came poly which was really cute and i loved it, very cheesy romance movieish.

jazzy just left and im exhausted but tryign to stay up to get used to being onnights. chrissy is helping me stay awake, we are talking about how we think our lives are actually soap operas and we just didnt get the memos!

hmmm i think thats it for now...

mel

well tuesday morning i went for my job interview for zellers. it went well and the lady told me i was hired except i had to meet the supervisor first. then she called later that day and said i wouldnt be able to meet with her so i was just hired. i will be doing overnight merchandise moving. im happy with it because i'll be getting 37.5 hours/wk and $8.03/hr. that lifts some stress of how to pay for life in general!

tuesday night was girls night. and it was so wonderfuL! there were about 8 of us and we ate a lot of chocolate and visited. i had a really good time!!

wed i had orientation for zellers for 3 hours in the afternoon and it was soooooooooooooooo boring!! but i got paid for it hehe.

wednesday night i went to skinny phat and got to see jill!! that was awesome. its been about a year since ive seen her so it was nice to have her in town.

thursday jill and i went out for lunch to east sides, mmmm. then came back here and i baked a cake and made a nice dinner for jakes bday dinner. he came over shortly after 7, he had forgotten the guitar cuz he came from his uncles. so we had dinner and a nice visit. was good to just kinda talk. then we went to his place and he played and sang for me a bit. god i miss hearing him play. he is so talented!!

then we were gonna go to the fireworks with his roomate and his roomates gf. then we saw all the cars so we were gonna leave and watch them from my porch. but then we got stuck in traffic cuz there were too many people. so we ended up sitting in traffic for about an hour and a half. so for awile we turned off the car. reclined our seats and played 20 questions. it was fun, kinda like old times when we joked around, and had fun, i really missed that. he leaves for germany on august 12 till mid january. its gonna be so strange to be at open mic night without him. im gonn amiss him a lot!! i also realized that i feel like im chasing an unattainable object, even though im not really chasing. i honestly dont kow what to do. i care for him so deeply and no matter how much he frustrates me or how much i try i cant get over him. but i cant have him cuz he's still in love with someone else... my heart hurts a lot...

then i came home and jill and marcos were here. so we ate smores and homemade chips on the patio then chelsea came over and tehn jazzy came over when she was done work at 2. we all sat aroudn talking about a bunch of stuff.

ive never been so full of emotion and empty of emotion at the same time as i was last night. also cant remember when i felt so down. i thought things were starting to look up lately, i ws feeling better about life but now im feeling even more down than before. im not even totally sure why im so upset i just ache inside right now. and i wish i coudl fix it. im not saying this to get pity. just need to say it in general.

i went shopping today and got some craft stuff adn a bunch of cheap nice candles. they were really cheap but good sized ones and they smell nice!

i got some craft stuff. i got some material to make a nice blanket out of, black and kinda felty. i got some stuff to make chrissy a present too. i think she will like it cuz its pink! i was trying to find somethign to finish jazzys bday gift but i couldnt find what i was looking for but i think the gift will work anyway. im pretty sure she's gonna adore it!! cant wait to give it to her. she wants me to go to phils toinght but im not feeling it. i htink i will be antisocial and just stay home with my crafts.

i guess thats it. my moms got some job interviews next week so can you guys pray/keep your fingers crossed for her? she really wants to get out of mcdonalds! thanks

thats it i guess,
mel

well I got up early went to cpot to work for the day, then the girl that was supposed to work toinght couldnt so i got sent home at 12 had a nap and i work 5-9 by myself :)

im heading to the school early so i can vote! very important!!

hmm i guess i really didnt have much to say hehe.

oh no it wasnt lol.

i have a job interview!!! i got woken up from my nap by a lady from zellers calling to offer me a job interview. its tomorrow morning, and im very excited! i woud love to work part time at zellers! i love that store anyway lol.

TOday is also jakes birthday. happy 21 years on the planet hun. hopefully i get to see him later this week, its been a long time!

i also need to bake a cake later this week for jazzys bday! mmmm chocolate....

speaking of which, maybe i have some i can eat....
hehe

mel

So it ended up being a pretty damn fantastic weekend! i would have loved to go to see chrissy but since i couldnt this turned out pretty freaking great!!

So i hung out with bob last night. it was awesome to FINALLY meet the guy. turns out we had class togethr last term lol. we did a crossword puzzler for like 7 hours!! well we also watched a movie and talked a lot in there lol. hes a very cool guy! i love making new friends!!

so i got up today and decided to make chips. so i made a bowl of chips from flatbread wraps i had, they will be great for girls night!!

im so excited about girls night. can everyone PLEASE cross their fingers for good weather?? im happy, so far lisa and mandi and jazzy and chrissy are comign for sure. havent heard from anyone else yet....

so then i ate a salad for lunch which was great cuz i feel like i dont eat enough veggies lol.

then i was sitting around and i heard a knock at the door, and there was Denise!! it was so awsesome to see her cuz its been monthhs!! maybe even since valentines day? so we hung out and caught up on life. then we walked to pita factory for a freaking amazing dinner! wow i almost had an orgasm the pita was so good. i didnt realize how in need i was of a good pita!! then we walked back here watch some tv and chattd. then dave came in for abit before they had to drive dee back to TO. It was so amazing to see them.

So Jill is coming to visit this week!! i cant wait to see her its gonna be incredible!!!! shes coming on wed and staying till fri i htink. im ecstatic!! i miss my baby girl!

now im listening to pink, i know i know chrissy but its better then BSB! LOL

im gonna try to get to bed early tonight since i train all day at Cspot tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Jakes bday, He'll be 21, seems so young lol. i wish i could see him sometime, i miss hangnign out! meh thats life..

k im off i need chocolate to finsh this perfect day!

mel

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: pink-family portrait

Today is a good day!!

i was home alone for a relaxing night last night dancing to BSB!! chrissy was not impressed with this lol

today i slept in, there was nothing on tv so i went to teh mall. i applied at zellers. had a yummy lunch. i got some stuff i need for the treats im making on tues night for girls night. i hope the weather is nice, i want to sit on the padio!

i got a new kind of shampoo since they didnt have the one i want. i got dove. then i got dove deoderant and was gonna get dove soap but they didnt have the one i wanted. lol i love dove can ya tell?

my battle wounds from jazzys cat are almost healed! i konw i was provoking it a bit but it was on edge cuz it was fighting wth jazzy. she was just smart enough to be wearing a long sleeve shirt.

my cd just stopped playing i gotta find something fun to listen to.

i talked to john today. i really miss seeing him. i hope when i go up to bancroft to coties cottage this summer he can come see me!!

im getting hungry i htink im gonna make rice.... mmmm rice....

im thinking maybe.....sheryl crow. yes that works for me... hehehe im so hyper yet lazy today lol!

see ya all

i know i havent written in forever but here is a brief update before i jump in the shower.

the job hunt is still on and going strong. havent gotten much anything yet! im with a temp agency and ive recieved a few shifts at a box factory taht i absolutly LOVE!! im hoping for more shifts there!!

my cousin laura got married this saturday in port elgin so we went up there for the day and stayed overnight in a bed and breakfast. came home on sunday and i decided to come home for a few days. i may end up staying the whoel week cuz chrissy wants me to come home next weekend for a stag and doe in caledonia. and lets be honest nothing says a fun night out like a stag and doe in a "hick" town. lol.

i went and saw sarah and simons apartment last night in hamilton and got to hand out with sarah and jess. it was anice night. i was supposed to go to hamilton tomorrow to go shppign with chrissy but theres somehting wrong wiht the car so now i cant POO!

i started to think i was getting out of this funk i was in but its hit me again. mom kept asking last night if i was alright and really i dont kow what my problem is. oh well im sure it will pass...

welli should go shower, i dont want to miss the y and r.... lol wow i lead a rich life!

mel

i had apretty good weekend, spent a lot of time at the spur so thats always lots of laughs. but it was also emotional. i hate the way i am lately. im so stressed about a job and im angry and bitter at the world. im trying so hard to not be but i cant help it. im trying to work with some of the causes but im not sure how thats gonna work out. i just want to be happy again...

lynn is giving me some hours doing prep and stuff so thats a start but im not sure what to do about money.

im going to shower.

TOday i woke up early and takled with kate for a bit.then lynn called and asked if i could serve the grad bruch buffet today. i was all of it. easy money, i had no plans so i went to the school for a few hours. was so good to see and talk to lynn again. i miss her!

last night at the box factory was a good time!! didnt actually get to make any boxes but i got to seperate big rolls of bubble wrap into piles lol. mindless work i enjoyed it. the order didnt come in so we got cut early but at least it was a few hours of pay.... i came home feeling tired and vegged with bonnie all night in front of the tv.

kate and lo and jen went to abstract and i hear it was a rather random night, sound slike htey had fun

it was great to see kate again this weekend. felt like old times buggin each other and just hanging out.

ive realized ive become a rather angry person. i sitll have my usual laughter and smiles most of the time but under that im very angry. im trying to deal with this anger but i kow i need to talk to a few people who are causing it before i can get over it.

im seriously worried abou tone of my friends. she's been hurt in the past and im pretty damn certain shes gonna get hurt again. i wish she could walk away but she doesnt seem to want to. im worried she's gonna get burned again and then i might have to kill someone and really thats not gonna be good for anyone around.

im going to go lay in the sun now and try to be in a better mood.

mel

So we went o mullins last night, only to find it rather crowded so we headed to the heuther. it was a fun night!! just hanging out, eatinga nd drinking. i only got a big angry but then jazzy cheered me up lol.

kate and jazz stayed over last night. then i got up early today to find out all my dreams had come true!!!

i called into express personelle and got a job tonight as a box maker!!!! im ecstatic!!

kate wants to go t the mall. i want to sleep lol

either way have a gret day!

Its been a long couple of days since the weekend. I decided i truly dont want to go back to lucys and im hunting hard for a job. it was looking pretty glum till today, and now im feeling a bit better. i did all my stuff with the placement agency today and looks like i 'll be workign tomorrow night in a box factory! im really excited cuz its one of my dream jobs lol.

i also gota job witha phone survey group i start monday at 4. i'll give it a few days and see if im any good at it...

im really stressed about money right now. im hoping somethign comes up soon.

graduation was today so kate and mandi are in town. they all went out for dinner to lucys. then we are going to mcmullins tonight. its gonna be an interesting night i htink. im looking forward to most of it, but there could be some confrontations that i dont want to deal with

people have been pissing me off a lot lately and i feel pretty bitter towards most of the world. ive found myself frowning a lot lately. i HATE it because i love smiling and i with i was content again!

dash left yesterday for home. we had an amazing visit on monday night. he came over. we hung out, watched movies and had a great time!

i cant really think right now so im going to go and get ready for toinght i'll write more later...

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